ME TIFFANY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7:37PM

Well today was boring. Pure boringness. I did nothing productive, I did nothing exciting. I did nothing. Well besides going to church an hour early thinking there was youth group....well there wasn't so I sat and waited for people to show up. It took an hour. Went to church. Cried a little for reasons. Ushered. Went home. Made good food. Cut bread. Sat on my bum and talked to Mitch about me being 10,000 pounds. Emailed some people. Commented on some xanga. Fell asleep. Went to a soccer game. Fell asleep. Came home. Ate some ice cream. Did some laundry. And sat on my bum once again. Boring huh?!

How come no one updates anymore? Its been like three days for everyone. Come on you're getting behind! Of course for me because I am always on top of things....hehe...if you know what I mean.

Today my mom got mad at me for not putting walnuts on this thing I made today. They are called magic bars (cheesy i know). Well I don't like walnuts so when she wasn't looking I threw them away. Haha she found out and was mad. Thats alright. It was hilarious....well to me.

So I now have $263 going towards my trip this summer. Im sooooooo excited. I only have 700 dollars to go. Hah. I can do it. So turns out I am really bummed at the moment. I found out I have a schedule clash. The same weekend I have BPA there is the last retreat! I have no idea what I want to do. My mom wants me to go to BPA because that can get me to California and scholarships. But she doesn't understand how much this last retreat means to me. This is the retreat where I say goodbye to all my senior friends. Aww....triste. Even though we will keep in touch (right max?) it won't be the same and I still have to say goodbye. Hmm....I hope I can make it work. Maybe I can go Saturday night to the retreat and then I will still have Friday, Sunday, and Monday in Grand Rapids for BPA. Hmm....*is confused*

Not only am I confused with all that crap but I am confused inside. My emotions and feelings about some things that have been going on lately. And also some things that have been going on since the day I left the last retreat. I really hate dealing with all this drama, but its a part of life and I have to learn how to deal with it.

7:41PM

Maybe we put to much value on materialistic things. I mean how often do you judge people on how they dress? Honestly--becuase I do it all the time. And it's so unfair. Theres so many cool people who don't look like me. Not that I'm not friends with people who don't wear the same brand or don't have the same intrests of me. But I feel that so often instead of getting to know someone so different. We look, analize, wisper to our friends, then judge others. Not for who they really are, but who we think that they are. And when you think about it really sucks too. Especially when you get generalized and placed in some stereotype.

Because then it spreads and then it's like you are viewed as this one thing. If you got in a fight with someone, to their friends you're a bitch. If you're shy, conservitive, and good at school, well then you're a nerd. If you spend money on nice things well then you are either jewish or pretending to be.(That ones really dumb) and if you have a style completely unique and all your own instead of people being like thats so cool it's more like gosh that person is so weird. And when you think about it all of the stereotypes you realize you fall under someone elses also. And not all of them are positive, not everyone likes everyone. I guess it's hard because you don't know how others percieve you. And no one will ever like everyone, and we won't eveer stop judgeing one another. And maybe we won't all be best friends but maybe that doesn't give us a reason to judge others for what they have or lack. I donno. I guess I think that maybe everyone would get along so much better if we just set aside the differences whether it's in dress, opinion, and everything else and just tried to get along.

I mean come on we could all totally be like that kodax commerical where they played the song 'why can't we be friends.' you know?

Ok but anyways good day. I made $125 working at a cheerleading competition. It was SOOOO much fun! I was late getting there....but that is alright because I made up that time with my hard work. I hung out with Arin, Allison, Dustin, Ryan, and David. Then I saw Kyle and Jonas and I talked to them for awhile. Then I acutally got to work. I work well with Lucas and Ryan.

We got a lot accomplished.

We were yelled at by a fat lady about missing pins.
We watched Pirates of the Carribean.
Ate turkey subs.
Tried to steal pineapple
Was told the tshirts sucked.
Counted tons of money
Modeled clothes
Watched Pam take over
Michelle lost her keys
Ate chocolate
Moved big heavy mats
Looked at cute boys....
Got my report card
Sat and looked at pictures and found out my sister was floppy.
Sang to Avril Lavigne

10:04PM - Wow its been awhile.....

Here are my current thoughts about random things....

If it makes you happy-then it can't be that bad, if it makes you happy, why the hell are you so sad


I'm so in love with my life. and more then that--with my friends, with that smile, the wink, that hug, funny sounds, inside jokes, and everything else in it. I don't care if you read this and think--god what cocky bitch. Because it doesn't matter, who cares, who hates you when you have people who love you & who you love in return.

So fuck the people who make you unhappy.

Sure, everyone messes up and makes someone else unhappy at one point or another, but the people who make you happy apoligize, they make up. and you love them more for it. You bond over the stupid parts. So heres what I've decided I'm done with those people who make me unhappy. Becuase over time maybe everyone will make everyone happy. But right now if you're not happy with someone and it's not working out-I'm not saying give up. Just don't put yourself in a situation where you're just going to make yourself more unhappy. In the end: be happy-fall in love with your life. and try and love everyone whos in it. And for those who make you unhappy. Fuck 'em. You deserve better.


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Isn't it funny when you meet someone new, someone you personally don't know, and you already know like 1234034 things about them. There are so many rumors, about everyone. And to be honest it does seem like we all talk about one another, someone were close to, someone meet not to long ago, someone we don't know at all, etc. I think sometimes it's unintentional also. Like you say something and don't think about it, it just comes out, and at the time it may seem completely harmless. But then when it gets back to that person, which some how it always does, feelings get hurt.

It's hard to realize when you stop talking and start gossiping. when the words slip from "how was your day" to "guess what I heard today." and in the end I guess we all lose. Because it would be crap to say that anyone would stop. But if we keep this up, if nothing gets changed, if we all get lost in the gossip, this will end with everyone being just another someone who we all know 1234034 rumors about.




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Todays events = crazyness....
I rode a broken bus
I was attacked by a very annoying voice
I walked around the circle and had deja vu
I half assed jumped roped
I pretended to be a ditzy cheerleader (with the side ponytail and everything!)
I looked up stuff on the Great Depression (my favorite time in history)
I got my butt whipped by a smart person in spanish class
I was attacked by bad smelling colgne
I was told I was cute and I was thought about by someone very unexpected!
I got yelled at for talking in geometry
I missed the bus
I got hit by flying pop bottles
I slipped on some ice
I slept for two hours
I was stuck in a traffic jam
I was late to tennis....only by an hour
I met some cute boys
I talked on the ride home about my future (included some tears...sorry max but i really will miss you!!)
I eat some good food
I made my schedule for next year
I kicked my sister off the internet
I sprayed some Lysol because it smelt sooo bad by the computer
I talked to some people
I then decided that I have a lot of I's here.....

2:28PM

Due to a virus in my computer I have not been able to update. After lots of thinking and consideration I have decided to delete this because 1) I don't feel like I anything important to type about, 2) I kinda keep the details to myself 3) No one reads it and 4) Im lazy and don't ever feel like typing. Therefore this is my last entry unless you give me some good reason to keep on going.

4:10PM

Well today was a good one until after school. The day started off with me not doing my geometry homework. Going and learning about a dance career and speech. BORING....they were soo boring. Last year they at least put me in something I acually wanted to be in. Then went to spanish did some spanish talking and went to lunch were I ate lunch and sold candy canes. Today we didnt do very well. We only sold like a total of like five. But I'm getting two of them because I'm such a babe! Went to speech and talked about the death penalty. I have my opinions and you have yours. After school, I was doing great with all the headache stuff and right when the bell rang BOOM tiffany has a headache. So I stocked up on some drugs and went on with my day! Which was filled with dancing with the sixth graders. Yeah then i came home and ate a hot dog.

I need some advice right now....talk to me!

It kinda sucks having some of my best friends living so far away from me. I have LOTS here but I really need their advice. It just sucks.

So turns out our dance party is on Friday and I can bring anyone I want to till midnight. Wanna be my date? call me....224-8551!!! I'll take calls before 10:00 pm thanks! : D

I hate the phone. I love talking into it...but who do I call? I get bored of the same people.

I can't wait until the 29th through the 31st! Sorry guys but I will not be here to party with you. But I will be home New Years Eve. So call me if you have any plans.....224-8551!!!....lol

Where will I be? Visiting my good friends: Max, Scott, Megan, Chelsy, Nick and Gen. YAY woo hoo for NOVI! I'm not planning on doing anything illegal.. not until New Year's Eve!!!

6:14PM

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SIX things you have wondered about me in the past week:
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FIVE words you would use to describe me:
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FOUR things you enjoy doing with me:
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THREE things about me that make you laugh:
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ONE unique trait you like about me:
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6:09PM

I like the snow....

5:59PM

Today I opened the door.

I saw the pain in her eyes.

Her vains move slow.

Her heart stops, dies.

She sees hate.

She feels pain.

Its her fate

To lay there cold

In the dark

Lifeless.

She hopes someone will see

The darkness in her,

But its so hard to be

In that room

Her pain is contagious.

Shes not violent.

Shes not dangerous.

She just sits there.

Alone, unknown.

She is covered yet bear.

Shes confused.

The pain she is feeling dug her into a hole.

She wants out.

The darkness is sucking life from her body, her soul.

She wants to give up.

Shes not strong enough.

She says goodbye.

She wishes she was tough.

Her red blood trinkles down

Her skin so white.

Before she falls, she gives her last frown.

The door of life shuts right before her.

10:21PM

Your Dominant Intelligence is Bodily-Kinesthetic Intelligence

You are naturally athletic and coordinated, good at making your mind and body work together. Sports are fun and easy for you, especially those requiring good hand - eye coordination. There's also a good chance you're a great dancer, or good at expressing yourself through body language. You learn best by doing, and you feel like you've always got to be moving (even if it's just your hands). You would make a good athlete, physical education teaches, dancer, actor, firefighter, or artisan.

10:00PM

Well its been one of those weeks were you have something to say to that certain someone, but don't know you to say it. I guess I have just kind of ignored the fact that I may have feelings for this boy. It started a while back and thought I liked him. Never said anything, never did anything about it. I just sat there waiting and hoping he would come to me. Learned my lesson, go for what you want don't just sit there. So this time, I guess I don't know what happened. We said like two words and I thought hmm...do I like him? It was one of those weird coincidents. But of course being me I didn't do anything about it, thinking "he doesn't like me and why make a fool of myself". I think he decided to go for the other number one on his list.

Woke up about a half an hour ago. It is currently 4:49 in the afternoon. At the dance last night. I had a blast! I danced with soo many random people and did not just stick to one person. Its more fun that way. I ended up getting a terrible migrane at about 11:40 kinda sucked...Stole some good old exerdrin from a friend and was on my way to sarahs. I woke up at Sarah's house at about 11:30. I stayed up waaaayyy too late night. Sarah was on the internet talking to god only knows while I watched "thirteen". We finally ended up going to sleep about 3:30 or so. Acually I'm not sure. She woke up and told me all about a conversation that she had with someone on the internet. That little booger. I didn't even know what was going on. Anyways, all I have done today is slept and I am going to be bored the rest of the day. Any ideas...please tell.

7:41PM

Mood: Confused and happy!

Listening: Plastic Cup Politics (or something rather) by: Less than Jake

Hurting: My back (of course i live with a fricken heating pad), my lips and my head (if i take anymore meds ill pass out!)

Deprivations: (word?) a boy, headache wizard that will come and take my pain away.

What I feel like doing: Hurting someone with the name that starts with an M and ends with an E.

Today: Well today was kinda this big blob that Im not really sure what all happened. A lot did I know for sure.

1st point: Had a party today in first hour and it consisted of candy canes. People were supposed to bring stuff in. Did they? No.

2nd point: Got yelled at about cows in Biology.

3rd point: Looked up randomness all third hour.

4th point: Married two people in history class and made fun of my cousin. Oh and people found out that im a pyro.

5th point: Couldnt find arin.

6th point: Stepped in a lot of mud and now white shoes are dirty.

7th point: Went to the middle school to teach sixth graders.

8th point: Got told that we weren't able to perform tomorrow night.

9th point: I think our dance coach is thinking about quitting.

10th point: She told some people to quit.

11th point: Got picked up late.

12th point: Went to pizza hut with parents and had a VERY slow waitress.

13th point: Singing in front of my mirror with a brush in pig tails to the great tunes of Britney Spears brings neighbors to the window.

14th point: Sitting in a cold basement makes my feet cold.


Any questions....ask.

8:16PM

TIFFANY
T	is for	Timeless
I	is for	Irresistible
F	is for	Fresh
F	is for	Fun
A	is for	Articulate
N	is for	Neat
Y	is for	Yummy

Not like i know what all these words mean...but yeah thats me!

7:25PM

Today is wedneday...the day of all humping. Today was a pretty good day, besides: getting up late, waiting in the cold air for the bus, ten minutes later finding out that it already went by and we missed it, spilt my moms coffe all over my shirt, getting to school finding out i have a paper due in biology, getting into geometry and was clueless about the test we took, got to seminar and got a detention for talking to loud, had to take a survey on how much we smoke and drink and what not and it took FOREVER!, major pms in third hour, lost in a spanish game we played, got to speech class and had a "pop" quiz, and then listened to miss p go on and on forever about nothing, and then went to the loving cafeteria for fun dance practice, (i hope you know that was sarcasm), got yelled at by "miss thinks shes a coach but she shouldnt be" pam, came home had to make dinner and then got yelled at for not making it good enough. Im not usually this negative of a person but somedays are just made to piss you off. Like this one. But besides all the bad stuff that happened i was pretty pleased with the day. I found out that at the moment i have all A's. which is amazing in my case. for those of you that don't know me very well, well lets say im dumb so having three A's is a real accomplishment to me. I think breakfast really does make you get better grades...bring on the honey bunches of oats (with strawberries). mmm...! next topic. Someone called me today. I was a weird phone call. I kinda found it insulting. First of all, it wasnt me that picked up the phone. Second, it was in the middle of dinner so after my sister was done listening to the person talk about me "being a slut" she shared it with the whole family, so i got a lecture. Third of all, they had a disguesed voice and they were on a cell phone. I thought it was kinda mean what they had to say about me. I usually don't take offense to anything anyone tells me because i don't really care. But this time it made me wonder if i was really slutty. I dont think i am. Hmm...so i had a sucky day full of grades, pms, and hurt feelings.

7:10PM

mmm...ice cream

Your Icecream Flavour is...Neopolitan!

You aren't satisfied with just one flavor. They say variety is the spice of life and this shines through in your Ice cream of choice! Just don't eat all the chocolate and leave the strawberry and vanilla behind!

What is your Icecream Flavour?

Find out at Go Quiz

7:00PM

Post all your answers...i want to know how to make all you guys..!!

How to make a changa_chula

Ingredients: 3 parts mercy 1 part ambition 5 parts energy

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of wisdom

6:23PM

Random Sunday!

Flamingos can only eat with their heads upside down.

It is possible to lead a cow upstairs but not downstairs.

A human being loses an average of 40 to 100 strands of hair a day.

Peanuts are one of the ingredients of dynamite.--dynamite could be fun!

The average American/Canadian will eat about 11.9 pounds of cereal per year.--good old Honey Bunches of Oats with....Strawberries

A crocodile always grows new teeth to replace the old teeth.

The cigarette lighter was invented before matches.

The word taxi is spelled the same in English, German, French, Swedish and Portuguese

Arachibutyrophobia: Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.

5:34PM

1. i ____ tiffany.
2. tiffany is ____.
3. tiffany is my ____.
4. i want to ____ tiffany.
5. tiffany can ____ my ____.
6. tiffany needs ____.
7. tiffany can be ____.
8. i think tiffany should ____.
9. without tiffany i would ____.
10. best thing about tiffany is ____.
11. worst thing about tiffany is ____.
12. meeting tiffany was ____.
13. tiffany reminds me of ____.
14. someday tiffany will ____.
15. i wish tiffany would _____ for me.

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Today was one of those days were you sit back, relax and enjoy life. Those days when you say to yourself yeah i should be doing something but continue to sit there. Those days when you realize that t.v. is more important than your history project. Those days when your mom tells you to do the dishes and you look at her and say you feel sick, when we all know you are fine. Those days when do nothing but stare off in space and think of the past as if it were yesterday. I did a lot of that today and realized that i have done a lot in my day and consider myself lucky. I think of my life compared to others and appreciate mine for what it is. I used to think my life was terrible until yesterday when I went to Lansing with my parents and saw this family sitting outside with a cup asking for money. You don’t see that much in Lansing, but it changed the way I looked at things. Those people aren’t going to celebrate Christmas the way that I do. They wont have a huge meal of Turkey and mashed potatoes right after opening a million presents. They won’t have a warm meal to fill their hearts. They won’t have a millions presents to make them smile. They will have the joy of Christmas surrounding them and filling their hearts with warmth. They will see lights, decorations, the spirit of the Lord around them and know that everything will be alright. They will have the snow falling on their rosy cheeks. They will celebrate be there together as a family. They will celebrate a Christmas without worrying about how much money they spent. To me that sounds like a much more joyous way to celebrate a Christmas.

11:29PM

haha...sweet...this is soo much easier than xanga